The Eclipse Corridor (May 2023)
So technically we are.. on the other side of it in this moment. But this past week we had an eclipse. Of the Lunar variety.. in SCORPIO. If you’re not an astrology stan, no worries. Just think.. intense, dare I say maybe dark, relatively transformative energetic shift.. if you will. And if that’s still a little abstract.. just think about how the moon impacts the tides.. Now picture big waves. Weather related… but.. cosmically? Either way, the theme that kept popping up for me and a few others is… the season finale.. series finale?..I guess that’s up to you.
Anyway, it happened and I can never predict what will happen.. I’m not thaaat good at astrology, but afterwards I can definitely reflect on the shifts. I’ve felt this one coming for awhile. And I’m not fully sure I’m 100% there but it doesn’t seem as daunting now.
My shift was from that energy of needing to understand everything, being so curious about the deeper meaning of everything.. and I am shifting now into presence and enjoyment. en.joy. To be, present, in my ability to feel the joy. To actually have the ability, the privilege, the support to slow down enough, disengage autonomously, so that the world you allow in CAN actually be enjoyed.
This eclipse felt like a personal shift in the belief of my own power. My own sovereignty. A muuuuch stronger, perhaps deeper connection to my intuition and actual trust in it. Like I am allowed to choose what is best for ME, and I don’t need to feel the shame, or the fear around the repercussions. I’ve had enough lived experience to recognize how many times I have abandoned myself to make a situation easier for others AT THE EXPENSE OF MYSELF. Because I can.. “take it”..? But what if I don’t want to anymore? What if I’m choosing to care for me? And perhaps to step into the role of matriarch for my own personal family.
Today I sat on the front porch with my son Bash. I just finished breast feeding him and we watched Teddy finish his run around the lake. When he got to the porch he said, “Hello, Family.” And I realized that I had done it. I had created my own family. That shares the same values, and has the same desires for how to live a life, and one where I truly felt loved, heard and seen.
The pendulum of my life has swung sooo aggressively in both directions, good and bad, hard and easy, beautiful and terrible.. And I’ve grown to really believe that my ability to experience one side of the pendulum is the extent to which I can experience the opposite. And I am here to feel and digest and understand. But.. perhaps the pendulum can slow down a bit, and be at a radius that feels good. Perhaps I can shift my focus to the enjoyment of it, Of the simple things.
Life has been moving insanely fast for the past few years. But I am about to officially plant roots. I’ve created my dream home, I’ve come to a really clear understanding of my lineage and how to appreciate not just resolve. My mom is at peace and I no longer feel like it’s my responsibility to rescue or protect her. I get to live my life.
So.. you may not be a total astrology person.. but hopefully you have been able to slow down enough to feel a shift recently. Even if it is as simple as the final actual transition to spring. The transition to wearing your first pair of shorts, or open toe shoes. To letting a few things go, strongly held beliefs or ideations into a more curious and open thought.. Or even releasing some of the stagnancy physically, or emotionally… Whatever you notice, allow the shift to wash over you and serve you.
..Gotta go- baby bash is calling. ha #datmomlifetho
